This is to you: for these next weeks i wont be able to have any contact with you and its driving me crazy…im sitting in my room listening to music and writing this thinking what am i doing, I’ve never been so HAPPY to the point that i wanted to cry, ive only cried tears of sadness… I find myself wanting to talk about you every second and all of the things you do to make me happy. I have 69 messages saved in my inbox that are from every single SWEET thing youve said to me, and thats only texting…you know how disfunctional my life is and how crazy it can be but I’ve never been so happy. So many things are messed up but your the number one person who is holding it all together, i have NEVER felt like this about any guy ask any of my friends, i go through guys fast and never have actual relationships.

but you and me…are perfect all the things we laugh at, our familys together, how we both collect arizona tea cans, how we love the office…im crying so hard right now because…well…i miss you, plane and simple i want to be able to text you and know you will always text me back, but your very far away but inside i feel like your with me…i know corny but im lost in everything about you, the way you look at me, how you tell me i look beautiful everyday…how you look into my EYES  when you talk to me, how you get mad when i eat food off the ground, how we joke around and fight, how you kiss me as many times as you can before were late for class, how amazing you treat me. but part of me feels like i dont deserve any of this, but ive been through alot of hard shit and this is making up for all of this…i know no ones gonna take the TIME to read this whole thing but it doesnt matter i just need to say it……i love you so much theres so much i can say right now when i think of you…us… i just start laughing and crying of how beautiful of a person you are, i mean come on your in mexico building houses for poor people…YOUR AMAZING, but that word doesnt even begin to describe you…everything thats mine is yours and i know you would do the same for me…since i have a chihuahua now you have a chihuahua haha i care about your protection, about your opinion, about you more than anything in this entire world, the thought of you wants to make me scream of joy. You’ve seen me the SADDESS ive been and youve seen me the happiest ive ever been and i was only happy because of you…everyday i fall more and more IN LOVE with you..people dont quite understand why you…but i understand, thats all that matters if they knew who you are then they would get it…i miss drinking arizona tea with you, i miss listening to mariah carey with you, i miss cutting my pizzicato pizza into steak bite sizes with you, i miss you kissing my neck (which i love)… i miss watching your little sister sing to school of rock, i miss you stopping me eat mike in ikes off the ground at school, i miss going on walks with you,

i miss every little thing we do….im crazyly out of this world in love WITH YOU and even though your only gone for 9 days, each second of each minute of each hour of each day without you is painful, but its all worth it for that one moment when i get to see you again…