before reading this play the song below…and then read it, listen and read at the same time haha…

So this whole 3 day weekend was the best and the worse weekend ever, so to make a long story short so i can get to the part about you… thursday night i got arrested for the dumbest thing in the entire world a.k.a i hate camp rock glasses now haha….. so after the crying and the laws and everything i called you loren and we talked for almost 3 hours and no one has ever made me feel so happy about something so bad…you made me feel loved and we talked about everything our future together, my life,your life, just everything you mean to world to me. At that moment i felt like you would be the only person i could call and make me feel better…sometimes i feel like your all i have, that night i went to bed with the realisation that i was falling for you….

that next day was great, it was a typical friday hung out and i would’ve never thought that the very next day would be the most amazing day. I woke up the next day next to twyla and..to a text message to you loren and it said “do you want to come over” after what happened thursday i never thought my mom would let me but i just thought i  might as well ask so i did and she said yess i was so excited…so my mom callled yours and they talked, probably the most awkward and nerv racking 5 minutes ever but your mom said you guys were gonna have a fire pit and have people over so i was ecstatic…

little did i know that saturday,April 10th 2010 would be the day i truley fell in love with you, i got into your car and i couldnt stop staring at you..right when i got to your house we went to watch the movie brothers with natalie portman too bad we didnt actually watch the movie we were to busy doing other things…hahah, but lets just say ive never felt so with you before the theme song from the movie was playing and we were kissing and that was amazing… after that we went down to the main part of your house with your family and honestly i love them so much everything about your family, i loved running around outside trying to play baseball, and watching tait jump on the trampoline… as it got dark we ran around with all your guy friends and then there was me i loved ding dong ditching big mansions and neville doing all the work, but the thing i liked the most was even though you were with 5 guys and me you paid attention to me the entire time kissing my hand and kissing me ive never felt so wanted and ive never felt so internally happy….

the big moment when i knew i loved you was after we all walked back and your friends gave us sometime to be alone, so we sat on the beach chair by your pool and i layed down on you and i could hear your heart beat and you were rubbing my hair and my face and i was rubbing your chest, we were just cuddling and not many words were said… but we were talking about the first time we hung out and we were laying in the exact same spot almost 8 months ago, looking at the stars and at that moment i was looking out in the air at your house and thinking about us and everyhting we’ve been through and how much we’ve hurt eachother well mostly me hurting you and how sorry i am. Despite everything i’ve said bad about you when i was angry or sad didn’t matter anymore and the feeling of your hands through my hair gave me chills and i felt so happy to just be with you and i looked up into your beautiful blue eyes and asked you….do you love me? and you said yes and i said i loved you too and i ment it this time, loren everything we’ve been through in the past 8 months has been worth it to get to where we are now….im in love with you plain and simple…:)